It has been seven days - that's one hundred and sixty eight hours or, more dramatically, ten-thousand and eighty minutes - since my last encounter with sugar. Last Saturday night, I savored those Nestle Tollhouse chocolate chip cookies, topped with coffee ice cream, knowing it would be the last time I partook of such an … Continue reading Silencing the Flesh
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Preparing for the Journey
I don’t adapt well to sudden change. I know I developed that character trait as a result of a chaotic childhood, where sudden change stemmed from eminent danger or was followed by the loss of something that made me feel secure. That isn’t to say that I don’t like change. I actually thrive on change. … Continue reading Preparing for the Journey
How Are You?
Often, it's a formality, not requiring a response. Very seldom is it a question that people want an honest answer to. So why do we ask it? It's polite. These three words have become a dread for me. I don't want to lie, nor do I want to tell the truth. It would be impolite … Continue reading How Are You?
Roll With It
When God gives you a promise, you hold onto it. Whether it takes two days or twenty years, you keep your fingers wrapped tightly around that promise. I once prayed every night for a whole year for God to change a situation - and I didn't even have a promise, only hope. And he spake … Continue reading Roll With It
Life Happens in The Valley
When I hear Christians speak of the valley, it is generally with a negative connotation. The valley is just a temporary place you abide while you await the mountaintop, or the victory. You might hear someone say, "I have been in the valley for so long, I am ready for the mountaintop." In fact, I … Continue reading Life Happens in The Valley
Experience Hope
Isn't it interesting how perspective works? The way you perceive something can so drastically change the way it affects your life. You've all heard the glass half full/empty analogy. It is so easy, living with a chronic condition, to end up on "team half-empty". When you live with pain most of your life, that pain … Continue reading Experience Hope
Expect Nothing
I count on one thing; the same God who never fails will not fail me now...In the waiting, the same God who's never late is working all things out." Vertical Worship (Yes I will) In any aspect of life, when you have forward momentum and an obstacle interrupts that momentum, progress is halted. Most frequently, … Continue reading Expect Nothing
Plan C – Taking the Pills
I am grateful for the couple of pain-free days. Truly, I am. It was a great reprieve, I felt alive again. I wanted to run a mile, or dance in the rain, shout from the rooftops. When you have spent every moment in pain for years, even one day with no pain is worth celebrating … Continue reading Plan C – Taking the Pills
Learning to Live in the Gray
I was well into my thirties before I realized that my mind doesn't work the same as everyone else's mind. I don't see gray, I see black or white. There is no middle ground - you either are or you aren't, you're in or you're out. Some people think outside of the box, and I … Continue reading Learning to Live in the Gray
I Can’t…and That’s Okay
I can't. Those are two words I seldom use together. Growing up, my mom was determined to make sure I was never in a position where I would have to rely on anyone (as she had been let down too many times). When I said I can't, she would correct me and tell me that … Continue reading I Can’t…and That’s Okay