Silencing the Flesh

It has been seven days - that's one hundred and sixty eight hours or, more dramatically, ten-thousand and eighty minutes - since my last encounter with sugar. Last Saturday night, I savored those Nestle Tollhouse chocolate chip cookies, topped with coffee ice cream, knowing it would be the last time I partook of such an … Continue reading Silencing the Flesh →

Preparing for the Journey

I don’t adapt well to sudden change. I know I developed that character trait as a result of a chaotic childhood, where sudden change stemmed from eminent danger or was followed by the loss of something that made me feel secure. That isn’t to say that I don’t like change. I actually thrive on change. … Continue reading Preparing for the Journey →

Until Daybreak

Even as a teenager, I knew that the light was my refuge. If I could just hold on until daybreak, I would be able to rest my eyes, to sleep in peace. I have nothing left to give, and I have no fight left in me, and right now, I am just holding on until daybreak.

Scars

We've all heard the old adage, "Timing is everything." We often get ahead of ourselves, or impatient, and want things to happen right now. But, when everything comes together in God's perfect timing, amazing things happen - both for us and those who surround us. For me, impatience is generally the result of not knowing. … Continue reading Scars →

How Are You?

Often, it's a formality, not requiring a response. Very seldom is it a question that people want an honest answer to. So why do we ask it? It's polite. These three words have become a dread for me. I don't want to lie, nor do I want to tell the truth. It would be impolite … Continue reading How Are You? →

Roll With It

When God gives you a promise, you hold onto it. Whether it takes two days or twenty years, you keep your fingers wrapped tightly around that promise. I once prayed every night for a whole year for God to change a situation - and I didn't even have a promise, only hope. And he spake … Continue reading Roll With It →

Life Happens in The Valley

When I hear Christians speak of the valley, it is generally with a negative connotation. The valley is just a temporary place you abide while you await the mountaintop, or the victory. You might hear someone say, "I have been in the valley for so long, I am ready for the mountaintop." In fact, I … Continue reading Life Happens in The Valley →

Expect Nothing

I count on one thing; the same God who never fails will not fail me now...In the waiting, the same God who's never late is working all things out." Vertical Worship (Yes I will) In any aspect of life, when you have forward momentum and an obstacle interrupts that momentum, progress is halted. Most frequently, … Continue reading Expect Nothing →

Plan C – Taking the Pills

I am grateful for the couple of pain-free days. Truly, I am. It was a great reprieve, I felt alive again. I wanted to run a mile, or dance in the rain, shout from the rooftops. When you have spent every moment in pain for years, even one day with no pain is worth celebrating … Continue reading Plan C – Taking the Pills →

Learning to Live in the Gray

I was well into my thirties before I realized that my mind doesn't work the same as everyone else's mind. I don't see gray, I see black or white. There is no middle ground - you either are or you aren't, you're in or you're out. Some people think outside of the box, and I … Continue reading Learning to Live in the Gray →