Silencing the Flesh

It has been seven days - that's one hundred and sixty eight hours or, more dramatically, ten-thousand and eighty minutes - since my last encounter with sugar. Last Saturday night, I savored those Nestle Tollhouse chocolate chip cookies, topped with coffee ice cream, knowing it would be the last time I partook of such an … Continue reading Silencing the Flesh →

Preparing for the Journey

I don’t adapt well to sudden change. I know I developed that character trait as a result of a chaotic childhood, where sudden change stemmed from eminent danger or was followed by the loss of something that made me feel secure. That isn’t to say that I don’t like change. I actually thrive on change. … Continue reading Preparing for the Journey →

Roll With It

When God gives you a promise, you hold onto it. Whether it takes two days or twenty years, you keep your fingers wrapped tightly around that promise. I once prayed every night for a whole year for God to change a situation - and I didn't even have a promise, only hope. And he spake … Continue reading Roll With It →

Life Happens in The Valley

When I hear Christians speak of the valley, it is generally with a negative connotation. The valley is just a temporary place you abide while you await the mountaintop, or the victory. You might hear someone say, "I have been in the valley for so long, I am ready for the mountaintop." In fact, I … Continue reading Life Happens in The Valley →

Advocate For Yourself!

Today my doctor told me, "Thank you for advocating for yourself." I welcomed the words, almost felt like somehow she owed me that. I have spent two years going from doctor to doctor (Primary Care to Sports Medicine to OB/GYN to Pain Management), and I was misdiagnosed - twice. I have taken medicine - against … Continue reading Advocate For Yourself! →

Expect Nothing

I count on one thing; the same God who never fails will not fail me now...In the waiting, the same God who's never late is working all things out." Vertical Worship (Yes I will) In any aspect of life, when you have forward momentum and an obstacle interrupts that momentum, progress is halted. Most frequently, … Continue reading Expect Nothing →

Plan C – Taking the Pills

I am grateful for the couple of pain-free days. Truly, I am. It was a great reprieve, I felt alive again. I wanted to run a mile, or dance in the rain, shout from the rooftops. When you have spent every moment in pain for years, even one day with no pain is worth celebrating … Continue reading Plan C – Taking the Pills →

Learning to Live in the Gray

I was well into my thirties before I realized that my mind doesn't work the same as everyone else's mind. I don't see gray, I see black or white. There is no middle ground - you either are or you aren't, you're in or you're out. Some people think outside of the box, and I … Continue reading Learning to Live in the Gray →

I Can’t…and That’s Okay

I can't. Those are two words I seldom use together. Growing up, my mom was determined to make sure I was never in a position where I would have to rely on anyone (as she had been let down too many times). When I said I can't, she would correct me and tell me that … Continue reading I Can’t…and That’s Okay →

From Dog to Daughter

I have three dogs. Well, technically, I have one dog and each of my children has a dog...which means I have three dogs. I am not a dog person. Really, I am not a pet person. My husband, however, loves dogs and insists on having one. I made a comment years ago that if I … Continue reading From Dog to Daughter →