I have always been a driven person, placing high expectations on myself. At least that is the way to say it that sounds the best. The more accurate truth is that I have always been a little girl doing her best, begging for someone to notice her. Operating at a high level of excellence was … Continue reading Mom Guilt
Tag: chronic pain
Purging Hope
You may have clicked the link today to see how many things I purged from my home, but the only thing that was purged from me this week was hope. As I have purged things from my home, the items that remain have become illuminated. These precious things that made the cut somehow feel more … Continue reading Purging Hope
Candles Were Meant to Be Enjoyed
What is the deal with flat surfaces becoming collection spaces? The more I de-clutter, the more I realize that every inch of flat surface area in my home is covered with stuff - books, hats, papers, flashlights - a variety of items, most of which don't have a home. I have learned on this journey … Continue reading Candles Were Meant to Be Enjoyed
Silencing the Flesh
It has been seven days - that's one hundred and sixty eight hours or, more dramatically, ten-thousand and eighty minutes - since my last encounter with sugar. Last Saturday night, I savored those Nestle Tollhouse chocolate chip cookies, topped with coffee ice cream, knowing it would be the last time I partook of such an … Continue reading Silencing the Flesh
Preparing for the Journey
I don’t adapt well to sudden change. I know I developed that character trait as a result of a chaotic childhood, where sudden change stemmed from eminent danger or was followed by the loss of something that made me feel secure. That isn’t to say that I don’t like change. I actually thrive on change. … Continue reading Preparing for the Journey
The Baby Weight
I have struggled with my weight as long as I can remember. I struggled to lose weight, to accept my weight, to maintain my weight, and to carry my weight. The only thing that wasn't a struggle when it came to my weight was putting it on. A slow metabolism and a love for food … Continue reading The Baby Weight
Stop Sweeping it Under the Rug
Growing up, my bedroom was never clean. I always had too much stuff, and I didn't know how to organize well enough to keep my space clean. After I got married, my house was never clean. Yes, I scrubbed the toilets and mopped the floors, but my house never felt clean. It was always cluttered, … Continue reading Stop Sweeping it Under the Rug
How Are You?
Often, it's a formality, not requiring a response. Very seldom is it a question that people want an honest answer to. So why do we ask it? It's polite. These three words have become a dread for me. I don't want to lie, nor do I want to tell the truth. It would be impolite … Continue reading How Are You?
Experience Hope
Isn't it interesting how perspective works? The way you perceive something can so drastically change the way it affects your life. You've all heard the glass half full/empty analogy. It is so easy, living with a chronic condition, to end up on "team half-empty". When you live with pain most of your life, that pain … Continue reading Experience Hope
Expect Nothing
I count on one thing; the same God who never fails will not fail me now...In the waiting, the same God who's never late is working all things out." Vertical Worship (Yes I will) In any aspect of life, when you have forward momentum and an obstacle interrupts that momentum, progress is halted. Most frequently, … Continue reading Expect Nothing
